PECKPOST
It feels great to ORD. Some people really go batshit when they get their freedom back but for me it was more like a load-off-your-chest kind of feeling. Army has been a useful, colourful but ultimately arduous experience. It tires you and makes you listless. I think 'wasted' is the appropriate adjective haha.
Then again I survived 22 months! And I think I'm better for it. I made lots of great friends and had a good boss. I met a lot of different people that I hadn't been exposed to before. It was a well needed mental break from the burnout that was A levels (albeit a damn fugging long one). Over time my priorities also sorted themselves out - haha that generally that happens when life sort of forges ahead without you. My relationship with my parents improved too. I'm not a delinquent by any measure but without the stress and responsibilities of school you really got more time to just talk and do stuff with them. My mum and I have the most frivolous conversations sometimes. Army also pushed my limits of tolerance and exhaustion. I think I'm calmer when put in times of immense stress. I've also become even more chilled out (if I could get any more chilled out, that is)
Then again this doesn't distract from the fact that I think it's been a waste of my time and life. The time to character-building ratio is low while the brain retardom to time scale is not surprisingly high. A lot of the time you're just simplifying yourself to get your point across to regulars who are stupid, but yet arrogant and completely self-assured. Army politics sorta mirror the real world (to what extent I don't know). It's frustrating because everyone needs to suck thumb no matter what shit goes down and some of the time the direction and source of the shit is arbitrary. I've also grown distant from a lot of my older friends, especially the girls and of course there's the feeling of being left behind as others enter uni and you are stuck in this 2 year limbo. These are some of my regrets and disappointments. They do make you slightly jaded.
Lol enough rumination on the topic. There's too much to put into words. Or more like I'm lazy to think or recount them. I got my pre uni schedule roughly planned out already
Now till 3 Dec: Read some shit, get my brain cranking. Watch some movies. Cook shit with Wally and catch up with friends. I'm still considering buying COD Modern Warfare 2 though I'm on the reluctant side. Infinity Ward really massacred the game for PC multiplayer by taking away dedicated servers. It's also 80 bucks, which is a ripoff. I might give it a pass, though before that I might unleash a heart-wrenching wail of anguish and cry like a baby. -teary eyes-
Dec 4 - Dec 8 - I'm going HK with the geog boys cept AL because AL is a maggotron who pangseh us coz he needs to go to some conference in France where he will learn how to catch criminals and crackdown on life in general. Still should be fun. IN FACT SHD BE MORE FUN WITHOUT AL.
Dec 9-10 - Uh I don't know.
Dec 11-28 - I'll be going to USA with my mum and dad as well as my aunts family. My sis and her boyfriend have offered to drive us around (damn gracious of them) so we'll be going to quite a few places like Disneyland, Grand Canyon, Las Vegas etc. I'm pretty excited about this trip because firstly, I get to see my sis again and secondly, I've never been to US, and thirdly I haven't gone on a big, long holiday in a faraway land for a long time. Then again the budget is tight so we'll probably eat like hotdogs and burgers everyday. Mmm ang moh food. Me favourite.
From Jan to roughly March or April I'll be going on internship at some accountancy firm. I don't know what to expect of it and I hope they don't expect anything of me coz I am an accounting noobhead. Then from then on I'll enter uni for early semester.
There are other side things that I want to accomplish in that time, namely:
- Retrieve my brain from the abyss
- Learn Hokkien. Nothing feels right when everyone around you can speak and converse in it and you can't. It makes me feel like homg I have lost my roots :( Ken I actually call myself a real chinese? :(
- Refine my language. I really got to tone the vulgarities down. I sorta went out of control in the last 3 months of NS and I was really throwing out the f-bombs. Not cool.
- Get spiritual. I'll try on this. No guarantees. Apparently sometime earlier in a moment of weakness I told my mum I'd get closer to God after ORD. Time to pay my dues.
- Driving lessons. I'm not crazy about this even though my parents said I could have a car (1st hand or 5th hand I don't know) but if I have time I'll schedule it in, maybe on the weekends.
- Get marginally fit. I'm getting pwned pretty badly atm. My body is stiffening up like a corpse after working out.
Man I'm done here for the day. It's late and I'm going to sleep. I'll just post up this vid of Aziz Ansari on Letterman talking about Kanye West and Jay Z. Hilarious.
It feels great to ORD. Some people really go batshit when they get their freedom back but for me it was more like a load-off-your-chest kind of feeling. Army has been a useful, colourful but ultimately arduous experience. It tires you and makes you listless. I think 'wasted' is the appropriate adjective haha.
Then again I survived 22 months! And I think I'm better for it. I made lots of great friends and had a good boss. I met a lot of different people that I hadn't been exposed to before. It was a well needed mental break from the burnout that was A levels (albeit a damn fugging long one). Over time my priorities also sorted themselves out - haha that generally that happens when life sort of forges ahead without you. My relationship with my parents improved too. I'm not a delinquent by any measure but without the stress and responsibilities of school you really got more time to just talk and do stuff with them. My mum and I have the most frivolous conversations sometimes. Army also pushed my limits of tolerance and exhaustion. I think I'm calmer when put in times of immense stress. I've also become even more chilled out (if I could get any more chilled out, that is)
Then again this doesn't distract from the fact that I think it's been a waste of my time and life. The time to character-building ratio is low while the brain retardom to time scale is not surprisingly high. A lot of the time you're just simplifying yourself to get your point across to regulars who are stupid, but yet arrogant and completely self-assured. Army politics sorta mirror the real world (to what extent I don't know). It's frustrating because everyone needs to suck thumb no matter what shit goes down and some of the time the direction and source of the shit is arbitrary. I've also grown distant from a lot of my older friends, especially the girls and of course there's the feeling of being left behind as others enter uni and you are stuck in this 2 year limbo. These are some of my regrets and disappointments. They do make you slightly jaded.
Lol enough rumination on the topic. There's too much to put into words. Or more like I'm lazy to think or recount them. I got my pre uni schedule roughly planned out already
Now till 3 Dec: Read some shit, get my brain cranking. Watch some movies. Cook shit with Wally and catch up with friends. I'm still considering buying COD Modern Warfare 2 though I'm on the reluctant side. Infinity Ward really massacred the game for PC multiplayer by taking away dedicated servers. It's also 80 bucks, which is a ripoff. I might give it a pass, though before that I might unleash a heart-wrenching wail of anguish and cry like a baby. -teary eyes-
Dec 4 - Dec 8 - I'm going HK with the geog boys cept AL because AL is a maggotron who pangseh us coz he needs to go to some conference in France where he will learn how to catch criminals and crackdown on life in general. Still should be fun. IN FACT SHD BE MORE FUN WITHOUT AL.
Dec 9-10 - Uh I don't know.
Dec 11-28 - I'll be going to USA with my mum and dad as well as my aunts family. My sis and her boyfriend have offered to drive us around (damn gracious of them) so we'll be going to quite a few places like Disneyland, Grand Canyon, Las Vegas etc. I'm pretty excited about this trip because firstly, I get to see my sis again and secondly, I've never been to US, and thirdly I haven't gone on a big, long holiday in a faraway land for a long time. Then again the budget is tight so we'll probably eat like hotdogs and burgers everyday. Mmm ang moh food. Me favourite.
From Jan to roughly March or April I'll be going on internship at some accountancy firm. I don't know what to expect of it and I hope they don't expect anything of me coz I am an accounting noobhead. Then from then on I'll enter uni for early semester.
There are other side things that I want to accomplish in that time, namely:
- Retrieve my brain from the abyss
- Learn Hokkien. Nothing feels right when everyone around you can speak and converse in it and you can't. It makes me feel like homg I have lost my roots :( Ken I actually call myself a real chinese? :(
- Refine my language. I really got to tone the vulgarities down. I sorta went out of control in the last 3 months of NS and I was really throwing out the f-bombs. Not cool.
- Get spiritual. I'll try on this. No guarantees. Apparently sometime earlier in a moment of weakness I told my mum I'd get closer to God after ORD. Time to pay my dues.
- Driving lessons. I'm not crazy about this even though my parents said I could have a car (1st hand or 5th hand I don't know) but if I have time I'll schedule it in, maybe on the weekends.
- Get marginally fit. I'm getting pwned pretty badly atm. My body is stiffening up like a corpse after working out.
Man I'm done here for the day. It's late and I'm going to sleep. I'll just post up this vid of Aziz Ansari on Letterman talking about Kanye West and Jay Z. Hilarious.
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